Gethsemane

I wonder what the disciples dreamed of

When they slept

leaving you in the forest of olives

To agonize alone.

Was it nightmares behind their eyelids

Or virtual reality adventures

Clickbait hate echo chambers

Or was it pornography hot takes

Or shame squads

Or Hollywood chasers

Was it a candy-coated notion that they could make it someday

Was it political memes at 2am?

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Or was that God’s plan for you?

Was being abandoned

important to your story?

Would your resurrection have been less important?

If someone had stayed awake and held your hand? Like a mother or a friend?

Waiting for insulin in prison

Writing letters to senators

Marching with inflatable costumes, spraying glitter on the Roman legion, because that’s all we can do.

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It might not make a difference

But wouldn’t it be better if

Your disciples stayed awake

And you weren’t alone?